The L word.............

So many things have happened.......where to start? well i guess the most important ........i found love i don't believe for a moment that people all people aren't looking for unconditional love, understanding and appreciation ............no matter what a hard ass you may be ultimately you want to be loved and let me tell you it's worth the wanting, the heartache the struggle cause once you have it it's just rewarding in and of itself.

ok now for the interesting part, we met on a bus on an island in far east asia and knew each other all of 20 hours before we realised we wanted to be together ......how corny and pathetic is that??? if one of my friends had said to me that they'd fallen for a total stranger after only knowing them for 20 hours and were moving city and changing their lives so they could be together i would have said you're CRAZY (secretly thinking yeh let's see how long this lasts ............dripping in sarcasm) ............but low and behold it works and is lasting (two years and counting) so i want to say to all you people who are hoping for love, looking for love and especially the ones that know there's something missing in their life but aren't quite sure what it is, don't give up, don't stop wanting, hoping looking, it is far far too important and is so wonderfully worth all the shit that comes before...........

So many things i wish i would have done differently in my life, so many things that i wish just hadn't happen or could forget or erase, so many stupid days, nights wasted on loving the wrong person and yet on a whole i regret none of it as it all led me to be on that bus at just that moment, feeling open and unafraid to take a chance................YOU HAVE BEEN WORTH THE WAIT