It's been a while

I'm feeling a bit low /yet I'm surrounded by this beauty
I feel mean a petty for indulging my bad moods and negativity
but i am helpless to escape it
My onlyl light my only hope is that tomorrow the sun will come out again -
I hate the night

I lie in bed staring at the fan trying not to blink
tomorrow the sun will be out and i will not be feeling like this

I crave something- I crave it so bad it is like this entity sitting with me, lying in bed with me, eating this fruit..........